Friday, August 19, 2011

Tired!

Today I am thankful for being home.
Today I am thankful for the privilege of caring for my sweetheart when he can do nothing for himself.
Today I am thankful for the life and joy in other people.  I feel them living around us and I know we are in a season of receiving and watching for the lessons God is presenting but I don't like most of my lessons.  I am trying to understand them, I am watching the Teacher, I am reading the lessons in my textbook, I am doing my homework.  But I wish I could go outside with my friend and romp around and fall into his arms and then go find a fun picnic spot.

I am tired and need to sleep -- I cry-- but I am still thankful for the day.

I am thankful for the care hospice will offer within the next few days
I am thankful for the family and friends that are reaching out to help in every way I desire or that they can think of
I am thankful for Apple Drug store delivery of medicines instead of having to go get them
I am thankful for the rain as it soaks in and lessens the drought [at least the one in Delmar!]
I am thankful for the lawyer I spoke with this morning who pointed me in the right direction
I am thankful for the Delmar Library being SO HELPFUL to me today [and for all the hugs]
I am thankful for Gene's supportive family
I am thankful for the personnel office at Gene's work helping me with the paperwork for his retirement.
I am thankful for the cards that came in the mail
I am thankful for the devotion read to Gene by a fellow outdoors-man / soldier and for the American flag he brought Gene
I am thankful for the horse manure [and the tightly sealed glass jar in which it is contained] that  a fellow equestrian brought Gene today
I could go on because I am doing my lessons to observe well what God brings each day that I CAN be thankful for
---- because there are lots of tears in between and a heart wrenching I can not stop that feels like it will turn me inside out.

3 comments:

Barbara said...

I am thankful that Gene is in your loving care and that you are all in the hands of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ ! I can not even imagine the pain and heartache you are feeling and can only continue to pray with so much love in my heart for you and your beautiful family.

“The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine
on you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward
you
and give you peace.”’
Numbers 6:24-26

Kris said...

"When peace like a river attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll. Whatever my lot, though hast taught me to say It is well, it is well with my soul."

"I'd stay in the garden with him. Though the night around me be falling. But he bids me go through the voice of woe, his voice to me keeps calling. And he walks with me and he talks with me and he tells me I am his own. And the joy that we share as we tarry there none other has ever known"

While praying for you these two hymns keep coming to mind....actually more than that. They are loudly calling. There are so few words I can offer as comfort but please know that my prayers and love are with you and Gene as well as the kids.-Kristine

Marie said...

We are glad that you are home and caring for Gene. You are in our thoughts and prayers daily, but are like normal people who aren't really sure how you would like to know that. We don't want to intrude on your precious time with phone calls or unannounced visits but we watch for each update.