Today I am thankful for being home.
Today I am thankful for the privilege of caring for my sweetheart when he can do nothing for himself.
Today I am thankful for the life and joy in other people. I feel them living around us and I know we are in a season of receiving and watching for the lessons God is presenting but I don't like most of my lessons. I am trying to understand them, I am watching the Teacher, I am reading the lessons in my textbook, I am doing my homework. But I wish I could go outside with my friend and romp around and fall into his arms and then go find a fun picnic spot.
I am tired and need to sleep -- I cry-- but I am still thankful for the day.
I am thankful for the care hospice will offer within the next few days
I am thankful for the family and friends that are reaching out to help in every way I desire or that they can think of
I am thankful for Apple Drug store delivery of medicines instead of having to go get them
I am thankful for the rain as it soaks in and lessens the drought [at least the one in Delmar!]
I am thankful for the lawyer I spoke with this morning who pointed me in the right direction
I am thankful for the Delmar Library being SO HELPFUL to me today [and for all the hugs]
I am thankful for Gene's supportive family
I am thankful for the personnel office at Gene's work helping me with the paperwork for his retirement.
I am thankful for the cards that came in the mail
I am thankful for the devotion read to Gene by a fellow outdoors-man / soldier and for the American flag he brought Gene
I am thankful for the horse manure [and the tightly sealed glass jar in which it is contained] that a fellow equestrian brought Gene today
I could go on because I am doing my lessons to observe well what God brings each day that I CAN be thankful for
---- because there are lots of tears in between and a heart wrenching I can not stop that feels like it will turn me inside out.