Friday, July 8, 2011


After very little sleep last night.....altogether about 4 hours, I awoke at 3:58am thinking what are you thankful FOR?   I have been sharing some of the stuff going on in my life and signing it "thankful every day but what has there been to be thankful for?  I sensed the Lord instruct me say, spell it out, things I am thankful for.  Could this be that I will need to reread these things in days to come?  I know not, but I am going to be obedient and you can read along.

I am thankful that the husband I married already had a personal relationship with God through Christ Jesus before our relationship began.

I am thankful that he is a man once a decision is made he sticks by it.

I am thankful that he wanted to homeschool our children, announcing just that when we only had newborn, Puller John.
I had not considered such an idea and did not have the slightest idea how to proceed.

I am thankful that once he planted the idea he allowed me all the freedom to research, explore and conduct the education as God directed me.

I am thankful that when I messed up he never held a grudge. [Even when I fell for a marketing scheme and lost $108 once and when at my request he stopped and picked up a hitchhiking couple who stole all our cash while we gave them a ride.]  He never blamed me nor held it over my head.

I am thankful that he cares about the abandoned, the widowed, the fatherless, the mistreated and the critters in this life.  He often gives up his personal needs to see to theirs and yet never claimed attention for it.

I am glad he sees the world in two dimensions....the right and the wrong.  There is no gray area in his understanding.  This has lead to some powerful, okay, argumentative discussions because I always want to understand someone's intentions and how they interpreted their situation and he didn't was right or wrong.

I am thankful that right now when things hangs in the balance of disease vs earthly life, Gene loves me, and needs me and isn't slow to say so.

And you may think me odd [oh well...] but I am thankful that I have walked the path of serious illness and death so very many times already in my life.  I have the knowledge of how this goes, I have experiences with being the great granddaughter, the granddaughter, the niece, the cousin, the sister, and the daughter.  I just do not yet know the details nor have I done it with my husband so it is hard but I really do get that the scripture is true where it says :

 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,  who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.  For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance, so also our comfort is abundant through Christ. [2 Cor 1:3-5]

And so for today I am thankful....every and now you know just a few of the reasons.


dishgirl said...

Oh Joan, i am so happy you found Gene. He is a wonderful man, and together you have a wonderful life, wonderful children, and most of all Faith! Together i know you can get through all of this. I pray God will give you both the strength and guidance you need. Please let me know if you want to talk, or just have someone to be with. I know i haven't seen you for a long time, but please know i am here if you need me. I love you, Sharon

Kristin said...

I was thinking of you today and thought of the scriptures in Exodus 17:11-12 when the Israelites were fighting the Amalekites. Moses held up his arms and when he grew too tired, his friends held them for him. I pray we all can be that for you. When your arms are tired and you feel defeated, we can be the strength to keep them raised.