There is pressure on every side. Will my children emerge from this unscathed? No, the death of their father will forever mark them. Will I make it through this intense grief? I have every confidence that God will continue to travel me through this time period and that I will learn much and that He will use what I learn to comfort others in years to come.
What is my job right now? That is confusing but it is where the crying everyday comes in. Someone just today told me that my grief was oh so legitimate. I want to share her encouraging words with you because they were so meaningful to me.
You are doing so well and are such a blessing to all you have shared
your journey with so far. Please know that even those of us who don't
communicate too much are thinking of you and praying for you. Also know
that it is OK not to be in the "healing" stage yet. Our society puts
too much pressure on people to "hurry up and get on with the healing
process". That's crap. You need to grieve. Grief is not self pity.
Grief is the real acknowledgement that what you have lost (regardless of
what Gene has gained) was real and matters.
So I feel okay with this difficult journey. I really thought I would sail through. After all I have "done" death so many times before.....ha! NEVER have I been through this. I cry in the dentist office, I cry in the chiropractors office, I cry in the car, I cry on the beach [and that was just today!] But I am okay, I am grieving and I am doing the things I must do and I am not doing the things that are too hard.
thanks "ME" [that's my friend's signature] for the warm and encouraging words
It is a part of the whole process.